2 changes of my life?
1. Being here.
Being in SAIT is a big leap of faith.
I love being here because it makes me feel like I can do anything in life.
I mean, Hello? Hahahaha. Im sixteen and Im in post-secondary education level. High five to me, eh?
Its just that Its so much to take in sometimes, and I feel like its a big step that I need to make if i really wanna make it to the other side.
I have been a bystander in this change, because every time I have a problem or trouble in the course I would always turn it into some kind of blind spot, So I will not deal with it or anything.
I would just let it slide and hope nothing will go wrong (Hahahaha. I am so dead because of this, I am not rational enough to make this kind of decision)
I dont feel like being in the class will make any good. And it will just bash me down.
I never really think about it, and bashing down is always been a stupid thing and I dont really get bash down by this kind of thing.
And I realize its something I have to go through, Too late. I must say.
Changes are so negative for me, It comes when Im not ready. And I always think of myself as that ordinary person that can't struggle or always be ready.
And, one more thing,
Im scared.
2. Realizing I can find good friends.
I am a people person, but Im always alone in a way where nobody can stand me.
Because Im am bursting with personality, and I am really awesome. HAHAHAHAHA
So, I found out that I can, its just that because I am me, There can only be a certain group of people that can actually stand me. And when I realize that I actually found some, Its like I don't feel like I am toxic.
So, It made me think that I can be whoever I am, and I just have to face the truth that I can't make everybody happy. Someone will always be that person who just can't stand me, or be around me because I am too much for them
In this change I have been both making myself as a victim,
or making myself as a douche bag to push people away. Because I hate rejection.
I have that group of people, now I can be whoever I wanna be.
