Reflect Focus

What is truth? 

What is authority? 

How do I know what I know? 

To whom do I listen? 

I never actually wonder about what truth, because for me... 

I can say that I believe what I see, but I can also count on words. 

As simple as before this question has popped up, for me truth is just a thing that I hear with some of the evidence OF WORDS that come with the "truth". 

What they say is the truth, what they just blurred out to me is what actually happen, the fact. But then again, I can never be totally sure about it because what they say might me exaggerated, or may be minimized. 

Maybe what they say is only what they know, or the part of the story that seemed to be the whole story, because people sometimes think that their perspective is the first person, but actually its only what they witness. This seems to be a thing now, where the third person is always the one who knows the most. 

Or maybe what they are saying is bias because they hate the other person, and want to make them sound/look bad. 

 

But in a way, what they say IS the truth. Because IT IS a part of the story. But then again, its not the complete element. But it is a part of it. So maybe from now on I am gonna call them the element of truth. 

Authority.. 

Something I hate and love the most. 

I love it because having authority over something is a great deal, because you are the game changer. You are the one who is taking the big calls. 

I hate it because people forgot who they truly are after having authority over something. 

I never really truly listen to anyone. For me I have authority over the way I live my life. 

And for me, if they say some thing, I would do it just for the sake of doing it, because I'd rather have to sit through something I don't want to do, than having problems with that certain that have the 'authority' based on the "hierarchy" of society or just that place. 

So I guess for me, I don't have a definition or anything over it. 

Because even a leader, They do it with the team. A good leader will be willing to get their hands dirty.

I know its kind of confusing because along they way what I think about authority it comes back to the time where i have to be told to do EVERYTHING filthy, or "dirty".  

I dont know how I know what I know. 

 I feel really disturbed by this question. I mean, some of the stuff we do know as long as we can remember is just a simple case of the basic things we do need to know. And thats how they have always been used for, or those are actually the functions of what it is. Walking, talking, breathing, listening, understanding. 

To be honest, the more I talk about it, the more mind blown I am. Its like, learning how we learn is something out of this world for me. Im really confuse. 

Again, I dont really listen to anyone. 

I mean, Yes. You're words will be in my head, I will think about it and see the effects on what I, myself think about. And all I know is that, what they say is an input that I wont process. It'll just be there, in side my head. 

Now that I reflect in these questions, 

Im doubting who I really am.

Do I actually believe on what I believe? 

Do I actually believe in anything? 

Or Am I just human being with no where to go, and just wondering around and live just for the sake of filling someone's vacancy? 

Or am I the vacancy? 

.....I will now go take a shower and think about my life all over again.